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it’s 6:30 am and I’m not in my hometown. on the run again. exploring this map.
John Owen once said, “Be killing sin or it will be killing you.”
This quote is vitally true. The moment we take our eyes off the soul saving cross we have begun our decline to the pits of hell. Satan is not asleep waiting for some weak person to devour. No, Satan is very much awake and searching for believers to tempt into destruction.
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today I’m shooting 55 sec commercial for a chance to win a scholarship. Before every shoot I get nervous even though I shoot nearly every week. Before every shoot I go to Starbucks to think, read, and of course drink. Today is over all consistent to previous shoot days, but this time my heart is heavy. To be honest my heart is hurting. Last night I received a call, which lead to me finding out one of my best friends has walked away from the Lord. It doesn’t matter how many times you hear news like that, it continues to get harder as time goes on.
So here I am sitting in Starbucks reading proverbs and every sentence seems to be hitting on this situation. The message seems heavier, the strength stronger, God seems to be at work this morning. Then i realize how ignorant I am. This morning God is not stronger, his words are not more powerful. They are always like this, it’s me that has changed. It’s taken someone to sin against a holy God for me to see his power. To be reminded of his power. The great and holy God is unchangeable and is alway at work. That is the comfort I have this morning as my heart is heavy and my soul is weary. For though this morning it seems to be that Satan is winning, I know that Jesus conquered the grave and his holy spirit is at work. Please pray today for the holy spirit to work in the hearts of those who are choosing to sin, pray for those peoples family who try to love them in the midst of sorrow, pray for salvation to come upon the broken.
Starbucks has always been my place to go read, pray, think and meet with people. I have been going to the same one for years. The strangers that join me here have become familiar faces. After so much time passes I begin to think what are these people’s stories? What sorrows and trials have broken them? As strange as it may sound I begin to care a burden for them. David is the only one I have spoken with. Every night he sits in his chair near the window and spend several hours scrolling through his iPhone. My soul aches for David. Where is this guys family? Where are the people that care for him? Then I am reminded that I am suppose to care for him. Me, the believer who has been cared for by God. Don’t allow your hearts ache go on without action. God placed that concern and wonder about people so that you would go after the broken souls filled with stories and sorrows. It’s takes an ounce of curiosity, boldness, sincerity, and genuine love to make that first step towards meeting someone for the sake of their souls. Don’t let time continue to pass. We were saved for this purpose.
here I lay in my bed and I hear the cars rush by on the highway. The sound of them reminds me of how fast our days go by. As quickly as the morning sun shines through my window it is replaced by the shy moons glow. Within those quick moments we call days we are faced with a question each morning. Are we going to seek God in the morning? To be reminded of his promises and his glory and to talk to him in your weakness. The more we skip that vital time the more we become numb to the urgency and preciousness of it. If you have tried to make it on your own do this - stop and sit. Ask yourself how your soul is really feeling. I know mine feels like a thirsty soul. It feels like its begging for not just help from the Lord, but full control. I can’t do it, and I’m not made to do it. God is made to direct my steps. God is made to provide me with strength. God is made to reign in my soul.
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it’s 12:51 am and I am sitting in my car after another full day of meetings for films and editing films. I feel sick. I feel tired. I feel a little selfish and scattered. At the same time I am thankful. I’m thankful because the Lord answered my prayer by placing me in this city alone this summer so that I could focus and learn in these gracious opportunities. I’m thankful because I just read an email from a very beautiful & godly girl encouraging me to work hard and depend on the Lord when I am weak. Right now i am weak, but thanks to her I am reminded that our God is strong and he is the one that put me here. He put me here with the tools and ability to do what he has called me to do. I don’t understand what this path is leading to. At moments I am filled with fear. Yet I believe that God has a greater plan then my mind could ever create, therefore I dig deep in my soul to find the ounce Of courage and faith I have to follow what I believe is right. As I do so I ask that you pray for me. Because quite frankly I’m at my breaking point and am scared.